i found this under my desk from when i fell asleep on the floor:

if we never talk again
i know i will pretend
not to miss you

for now i will force my hands
not to write a letter(s)
shut you out
shut you in
can we start again?
we could make it better

it's been forever since i posted anything worthwhile.
things on my mind lately:
asics shoes. (totally dreamy black and white)
getting things in order. (dull.)
finally being done with spring quarter!!!!!!!!!

summer is here. i hate it. i really do. i hate the heat and the clothes. i've been lazy in jeans and t-shirts. i've been doing nothing with my hair. it's boring and i suspect it's given up. super short? super mullet? super anything really. itching for something new. i don't know why i get like this. i really do need a vacation stat.

ewww those sulfates.

sulfate free shampoos. i know you're probably thinking how boring! but no no no! it's interesting. i have thick wavy hair which doesn't like many shampoos. either they make my hair TOO dry or don't clean it enough. i used to keep 3 different shampoos on hand to try to trick my hair into submission.
ages ago, a former hairstylist of mine used enjoy products on my stubborn locks. i was amazed! no way! i was fooled into believing that this could only be done at the salon. my hair rarely ever looks salon hot.
i pushed it to the back of my mind, and kept on using boring old shampoo. sodium laureth sulfate and other sulfates that are in shampoos and body washes can also be found in household cleaning products. why would i want to use a cleanser for both my hair and my windows?! yeah, i know. gross. and scary!
i've used several sulfate free shampoos since then, but my favorite is enjoy. it is a little expensive ($50 for both shampoo and conditioner), but the sulfate free organix line can be purchased at target/walmart ($10-12 for shampoo and conditioner). i used the coconut which works like a dream, but i decided to switch it up.
now i need to find a good organic body wash!

nice little post.

been listening to:

lovelikefire

may 68

magic wands


day 2 of sugar/caffeine/alcohol detox is finally over. i've been quite the bitch the past few days. ughh. lots of sleep to follow.
star trek was better than expected. chris pine and zachary quinto were HOT.
finished all the inbetweeners episodes. kinda sad. i need to find a new show! i might try to finish skins up. who knows. i've been picky with tv lately.
been wearing tons of black lately. whats up with that? mysterious!?

"we believe in a land of love..."

just woke up from an amazing dream.
i was back in time and it was the 1980s. secret crush was there and we were running through an old elementary school. the school was built like a house, and i was looking for the nurse's office. i was nicely informed that it was the infirmary. once inside, i began a search for drugs. i couldn't find any, and at that moment the nurse came through the door. i grabbed secret crush and pressed our lips together. "the perfect kiss"--by new order started to play. the nurse began yelling in her sharp accent.
i informed her that i was from the future and threw an electric toothbrush at her. secret crush and i ran back through the hallways.

it was seriously movie magic. damn.
more blog later on entertainment stuff. so much to discuss.

"heartache and happiness in one breath..."

today, i made a mix for a friend i haven't seen in 6 years.

april fools mix.
culling me to sleep- adam denny
out there on the ice- cut copy
turn it up- robots in disguise
this is your life- the killers
hurricane jane- black kids
coldest winter- kanye west
geraldine- glasvegas
electric bloom- foals
when you were mine- casiotone for the painfully alone
spiralling- keane
the con- tegan and sara
use somebody- kings of leon
inside of love- nada surf



i must admit it's a depressing mix. can't help it. you can't hide yourself. it's almost therapeutic. living in tv shows and music can only take one so far.

" i stop breathing then i cried......"

this weekend:
making mixes for various out of town friends (some guilty pleasure songs will be on there. just a little embarrassing)
rearranging of the bedroom. ( taking down old old posters, moving around the bed.)
lots of gossip girl and l word.

oh!oh!oh! shoedazzle emailed me about march's shoe selection. they are claiming that i didn't skip the month. i swear i did. they are all ugly ugly selections this time around. the test isn't too accurate. i guess i just like boring shoes. if my feeties were super cute then maybe i can see myself wearing a open toe wedge. MAYBE.

i really hate the "in-between" stage of dieting. i want to buy new clothes, but i know i won't be this size for long.

my haircut is finally starting to look somewhat normalish. i overheard my sister tell someone that it is a spock cut. okay, okay i can understand that. could it just be to my shoulders like right now? dammit. spock, she-hulk, cupcake, dutchboy!