Monday, March 30, 2009

"heartache and happiness in one breath..."

today, i made a mix for a friend i haven't seen in 6 years.

april fools mix.
culling me to sleep- adam denny
out there on the ice- cut copy
turn it up- robots in disguise
this is your life- the killers
hurricane jane- black kids
coldest winter- kanye west
geraldine- glasvegas
electric bloom- foals
when you were mine- casiotone for the painfully alone
spiralling- keane
the con- tegan and sara
use somebody- kings of leon
inside of love- nada surf

i must admit it's a depressing mix. can't help it. you can't hide yourself. it's almost therapeutic. living in tv shows and music can only take one so far.

Friday, March 27, 2009

" i stop breathing then i cried......"

this weekend:
making mixes for various out of town friends (some guilty pleasure songs will be on there. just a little embarrassing)
rearranging of the bedroom. ( taking down old old posters, moving around the bed.)
lots of gossip girl and l word.

oh!oh!oh! shoedazzle emailed me about march's shoe selection. they are claiming that i didn't skip the month. i swear i did. they are all ugly ugly selections this time around. the test isn't too accurate. i guess i just like boring shoes. if my feeties were super cute then maybe i can see myself wearing a open toe wedge. MAYBE.

i really hate the "in-between" stage of dieting. i want to buy new clothes, but i know i won't be this size for long.

my haircut is finally starting to look somewhat normalish. i overheard my sister tell someone that it is a spock cut. okay, okay i can understand that. could it just be to my shoulders like right now? dammit. spock, she-hulk, cupcake, dutchboy!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

almost ten.

i find myself in my room listening to music on huge headphones. think gaming nerd. a shiver slowly traces my back and a feeling of wanting to get lost in a new city takes over. wandering streets to find something exciting or perhaps nothing at all.
it is only then that i open one eyelid. still here.

i never did get into gossip girl when it was new, yet i find myself intrigued. netflix informed me that disc one of season one will be here tomorrow. oh watch out.

tomorrow evening, i am going to see night of the comet. i hear it's from the 80s and it involves zombies. instant excitement.
library books to return tomorrow. ughh.

is the nautical look back? i see stripes and boatnecks everywhere.
sea captains would be great.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

" i will cut you!!!!!"

THE MIGHTY BOOSH ON ADULT SWIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! march 29th. 1 am.

Monday, March 23, 2009

ny-quil dreams

the weekend was pretty much horrible. i was ill for 90 percent of it!
however, last night i took ny-quil and it took to me like never before.
i had dreams of topshop (which i have never been inside) and other stores i would die to go to. it was the 80s with modern clothing. no perm for me.
i want this coat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, March 19, 2009


busy days.

i've been absent this i know.
currently in a diet limbo. ughh. pushing it to the back of my thoughts.

paid tuition, so it looks like i have a fortnight to catch up on reading, tv, movies, magazines!!!!!
i've been intrigued by the newest gossip girl commercials, yet i have never watched a single episode. (netflix!!!!!!!)
something about escaping into a world of "perfection" makes it easy for me to enjoy. (thus my love for modeling/fashion/hair reality shows)

Friday, March 13, 2009


i just came across this. i know, i know. it's that flannelish crap again, but i think this time it's not too overwhelming. @ forever 21 for less than $20! what a steal. you can do so many things with this... black tights, blue tights, no tights, footless tights, skinny jeans, t-shirt, button up shirt, long cardigan. the list is endless.

new kids on the block on repeat in my brain.

hiding magazines in desk drawers. there's an addiction.
(latest copy of nylon and people style watch)
it's been a slow week. i bought two pairs of skinny jeans (gray and black) and some black flats. i also broke down and bought a cheapo pair of sunglasses. a knockoff rayban pair, but sexy nonetheless.

now i have quite the dilemma. do i keep growing my bangs out or do i blunt them up again? this growcut period is killing me. a solid structure of bobby pins isn't fun!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

monday night

last night, i attended a jules of morocco fashion show with a friend. although the designs were mainly designed for older women, i found a few pieces that intrigued me. a black sleeved shawl and an off-the-shoulder top really caught my attention.
i've had friends suggest that i start designing my own clothing, but my lack of skill and patience always chase me off. maybe i'll buy a sketch book tonight and see where it takes me.

agyness deyn's sister has released shirt called "long may she reign" under the hussaindeyn label. they are a kickback to warhol with a modern new wave edge.

they are fantastic!

Friday, March 6, 2009

"send me an angel...right nowwwww."

watched coco chanel (lifetime movie) last night. it was so-so. shirley maclaine started off with choppy sentences in a french accent, but by the end the french accent was gone. where did it go?
inspiring movie? yes. great acting? mediocre.

forever 21 is releasing a plus size line this spring/summer. i'm excited for the curvy, sassy women! from the pictures i've seen, the clothes are way cuter than any dumpster rags sold at torrid. (torrid clothes are too expensive for what they really are...poorly constructed garments that lose shape and wear easily.) hopefully, the forever 21 plus line will be better constructed for all bodies while keeping the price decent. that's all anybody truly wants!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

heavy duty.

i'm wearing new jeans today. seriously, it feels like i'm walking in a sea of sandpaper. although, they make me swagger like no other.
i didn't watch make me a supermodel last night! aaaah! it's recorded though, so i'll be able to skip through all the mundane commercials. i still think ronnie should have won last season. he seems like a genuine person and doesn't have a voice that annoys the hell out of me.
watchmen is out friday! woo! i'm a little excited. i haven't seen matthew goode on screen in ages! now there's a voice that's just melting.
i've been secretly obsessed with skinny suspenders the past few days. i haven't purchased any, but just the thought of them with a mini skirt...yess....!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

lovely like your fist

McQ for Target was officially released today. I made some phone calls ahead of time, yet it's not at my Target. What? I guess that's understandable. I would rather see it on few than the masses. I can't help it.
Thinking about taking a mini trip for my birthday. I would love to go to H&M. All my clothes feel so blah lately. Maybe I'll just arrange a clothing swap. Or better yet, I should get off my ass and learn how to make clothes myself. These little hands must be good for something.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

cute cute cute cubed

oh topshop. you are not on the west coast yet. i want to have your babies. you don't even have to stick around to raise them. i will not seek your help. just give me your clothes. this dress screams preschool to me. a simpler time but a little grown up.

dreams/new favorite

lady gaga. unusual clothing choices, but damn i can't help but admire her for it. i haven't seen a good diversion in a while. it's much better than the lumberjack 1992 look i've been noticing.

had weird dreams. people were breaking into my house and i had to detain them. i knew cop moves in this dream......weird dream transition...... i'm in a car on a freeway and there are people in the car i haven't talked to in ages......there is a road sign and it says maryland 10 miles. the scenery outside is trees and lakes.....i'm in a mexican restaurant everyone is talking loud.
i don't really know what that all means, but it was almost scary.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

courtesy of the psb.

"I was faced with a choice at a difficult age
Would I write a book? Or should I take to the stage?
But in the back of my head I heard distant feet
Che Guevara and De'bussy to a disco beat"